My views

Baptist

Yea, I am a typical Baptist. Although, religion is a funny topic for me. I do believe there's an over-viewer and I believe in guardians. I've had an "encounter" quite a few times, but I don't think it was the big guy trying to grasp my attention, I believe it was my guardian. I think that everybody has a guardian who watches over them 24/7 (sounds kind of creepy, huh?) and helps them fulfill their destiny. I believe in miracles, but it's so hard to believe in a "god". I went to a concert a few days back and the preacher went through a list of "faults" that he believed god could fix. The very last thing was "physical pain" and I stood along with dozens of others. He made us shout a chant and he prayed, and then he said "Let's test it out! If you hurt your knees, and god healed it, jump up and down. If you were deaf and god healed you, then cover one of your ears with your hand. If you hurt your back, bend over and touch your toes. Test the theory an if you were healed, scream for your love of Jesus Christ!" I've had back pain for a while, so I decided to test it out. No, this is not a story about MY miracle, but of the people around me that were screaming and yelling out their love for the man upstairs. I looked around and I could've cried on the spot. I thought to myself "Why not me? What did I do wrong?" Maybe I didn't believe enough (let's face it, I thought the whole Christian concert thing was a big hoax), but I will forever remember looking around the arena and laying eyes on a woman on the right side of the arena. She was jumping up and down, looking to the roof, and with both hands in the air, she began screaming and crying. I remember the people around her, with glee written all over them, pointing to the woman. I wanted that. I want to believe because, who knows what will happen when the inevitable happens? Nobody.
Church isn't my favorite place to be, although I used to go every Wednesday night (it was the only day my mom didn't work), but I stopped going after our youth leader began telling us that we couldn't date within the group. I didn't have any reason to be upset, I had my eyes set on a certain man that I'm still with today. But what place did he have telling these teenagers that they couldn't date each other? Yes, the dating did cause issues within our church, but he still had no right. Now, I'm not much on super cheesy romance, but what if two people were meant for each other and it was their destiny to be together? Let them make their own mistakes. If somebody decides to leave the church because they broke up with another member of the church, then that's their fault. It was their choice. Not his. And besides that, what would the punishment be? Would he kick them out, because that seems like the only solution. I even asked, but he never answered.
Religion is a tough topic. I'm Baptist, by boyfriend is Atheist. I don't mind it a bit, but sometimes we have to find the beauty in it. My boyfriend asked me how I could love something that causes so much destruction and war. Blind faith is beautiful, because as we know it, religion is mostly in the mind and what your parents told you. You believe in what you've always been told. I cringe when my mother talks about god because I never know what to say. I just don't believe in it as much as I used to.

Well, goodbye for now! It's lights out for this lady.